Too Many Voices

If you’re like me, you probably know how it feels to get overwhelmed when too many people are talking at once. Maybe it’s a relaxed group conversation, or an animated classroom discussion. Maybe you’re trying to have a conversation in a crowded restaurant. But whether or not the majority of voices are directed at you, just the sheer volume — both the volume of noise and the volume of words/thoughts/ideas — begins to overwhelm any single voice, any single unit of information being conveyed.

Sometimes the internet feels like that to me. Especially when it comes to social media, and particularly when it comes to Twitter: whether people are directing their words toward me or not, there are just too many voices for me to process.

And when that happens, I lose my own voice.

I lose my voice because I have to pull back. Otherwise I get lost in the forest of other people’s words, and that makes me lose track of what’s important in my life. Sometimes I really want to reach out, but I can’t figure out what to say. I don’t always want extensive interaction, or help solving a problem — I just want some connection. But then I pause, because I don’t want all the voices focused on me, even though I dread being ignored as well.

So all of this is to say that I have been pulled back lately. Right now I am starting to reconnect with Twitter after nearly a week off, but I am still not feeling ready to share very much. I am woefully behind on reading all of the wonderful blogs I follow, too, and the thought of trying to catch up is daunting. I will be visiting family this weekend, which has its own trials, and we’ll see how “peopled out” I feel after that.

I do want to say, though, that generally things have been going well. πŸ™‚ In fact, that’s probably part of why I’ve needed to pull back from online interaction — there has been a lot going on, and my focus has been pulled into new projects and areas of study. But I’d like to find a balance that allows me to maintain the connections I’ve made in the online world while also not getting overwhelmed by the flood of voices.

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5 thoughts on “Too Many Voices

  1. Reblogged this on Narcoleptic Aspie and commented:
    I can relate so much to this! It happens to me, and if you notice that sometimes I’ll be very interactively posting, commenting, and sharing on social media, and then I suddenly disappear, that’s what happened. And I feel really guilty when I withdraw and abruptly stop responding, because often I’m the one who initiated all the interaction to begin with… But then it just sort of steamrolled me.

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    1. Yeah. I have so far still found value in them, but I definitely need frequent breaks. And I don’t post about everything I’m interested in on any of them; I keep them dedicated to particular types of posts.

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  2. Reblogged this on the silent wave and commented:
    This (excellent!) post perfectly expresses what I’ve been feeling over the past few months. It’s hard to tell when I started to feel this vibe, but it built up gradually and came to a head. It’s reassuring to know that I’m not alone! My next post delves into my situation/perspective a little more thoroughly, but I invite y’all to enjoy this one! It is, after all, a very enjoyable post. Bravo, EA!! (Applause) πŸ™‚

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